No more memories. No more silent tears. No more gazing across the wasted years.

Too many years fighting back tears why can't the past just die?

Mood-hopeful

Currently listening to-wishing you were somehow here again from Phantom of the Opera

So....I haven't really blogged....like AT ALL!

so here it goes!

2010! WOO! Ha, I know this is like so late BUT, i can't wait to see everything that happens this year. Everything seems to be finally working out! I'm at a school (well alternative education). My school phobia seems so far away. I don't get why I was so scared. I mean yeah, where i go now is like not a school environment, no uniform, relaxed, we only have a few subjects and its just one big room split up a little, it's an old school library. Only about 55 students go there and not all of them on the same days (Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday) and some just skip. I actually love it there, I've finally started to make friends and am coming out of my shell slightly. It's great!

New year new things right?

I've started guitar lessons! for free! At my schooling. I'm so excited! I've wanted to take guitar lessons for ages, but then it was either guitar of singing. I couldn't choose. So now I get guitar lessons for free! I can still do singing!

Another thing!

On the 12th I went to a Taylor Swift concert and it was...wow, just awesome! except for the screaming...hated that!

It was just amazing!

This year I've decided, to let go of the past and look forward to the future.

I've spent too much time trying to figure out why everything that happened happened. There is no use to it. I'm just going to let go and remember everything happens for a reason. I'm going to stop thinking everything will go wrong and start thinking positively. I'm gonna stop wondering why those so called 'friends' i used to have turned their backs on me and went and became BFF's with my bully, the one that pushed me into depression and a school phobia and got off scott free.

Wow, blogging really helps you get alot out! I'm gonna do this more often!

I'm really looking forward to this year. Last year was good, i made new friends and met people that I will never forget. This year I'm hoping will be even better. I'm so happy already that I'm back in education and I'm making friends. Sure, they all smoke but when they do that I just stay inside. I'll occasionally go out there with them and just hang around, but I prefer not too.

I'm starting to take risks and not freak out over every little thing that could go wrong.

I'm trying to worry less and START FINISHING MY SENTENCES! haha.

New Year. New Me. I guess you could say.

I'm turning 15 this year! WOO! haha

Overall I'm looking forward to this year.

Until next time xoxo Ash