Shawty's like a melody in my head

That I can't keep out Got me singin' like Na na na na everyday It's like my iPod stuck on replay, replay-ay-ay-ay

Thanks Steph for getting that song stuck in my head!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -_-

Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! I'm finished with school for the week! woooo!

I'm in an awesome mood if you can't tell!

I'm all happy and shizz coz I've had a fairly great time at school this week and the annoying person wasn't there once! WOOOOOOOO!

Also I am apparently an amazing drawer :P everyone saw my Marilyn Monroe drawing and were like woah. I just sit there like....thanks but i think it kinda sucks....

BUT now i have to draw Pink, Jared Padalecki, Jensen Ackles, Eeyore, Tigger, Pooh bear, Piglet and Roo! haha

ANYWAYYY!!!

YEAH, so i can't think of anything else to put in this sooooooo BYE! :)

Until next time xoxo

Smiley AKA Ashleigh

But one foot wrong And I'm gonna fall Somebody gets it Somebody gets it

All the lights are on. But I'm in the dark. Who's gonna find me, Who's gonna find me.

Just one foot wrong. You'll have to love me, When I'm gone.

I've just realized how depressing it is to see the people you used to be best friends with having so much fun without you and with your bully. I haven't cried once this year, but that made me want to. But I don't want to be weak.

They say bottling up your emotions is the worst thing you can do, because eventually will just explode, i guess. That's why I'm writing this.

Does anyone see this? Lucky me, I guess I'm the chosen one. Color and madness. First in line I put my money down. Some freedom. Is the tiniest cell in town.

I guess things like this have to happen. Maybe it'll make me stronger. Maybe it'll make me weaker. Everything HAS to happen for a reason, but that doesn't make it hurt any less. Because they meant so much to me, it still hurts. Thats why I have trouble trusting people. Because I'm scared. I'm scared they'll walk away, leaving me broken. Thats why I love my few friends who I KNOW will ALWAYS be there. But for a while, I was stupid and I shut them out. For that I apologize.

Some people find the beauty in all of this. I go straight to the dark side of the abyss. If it's it bad, Is it always my fault? Did somebody bring me down? Did somebody bring me down? Did somebody bring me down?

I have regrets, I've made mistakes, but I'm still not sure what I did to deserve this. I know in my last blog I said I was going to stop wondering, but, I'm going to every now and then still wonder. I simply can't help that.

One foot wrong I'm gonna fall Put one foot wrong And I'm gonna fall But one foot wrong And I'm gonna fall Somebody gets it Just one foot wrong And I'm gonna fall Somebody gets it

I sometimes think it's all just a dream, a nightmare, but I know it's not. It's not that simple, for me to just wake up and it to all be over. No matter how many times I tell myself things will go back to the way they were and everything will be fine. I know it will never happen.

Just one foot wrong And I'm gonna fall Somebody gets it All the lights are on But I'm in the dark Who's gonna find me Who's gonna find me Just one foot wrong You'll have to love me When I'm gone.

The most I can look forward to is making a new path. Stick with the friends I know I can trust, but at the same time, never forget my old ones. Because even though they hurt me, if I remember them, I'll know how good I have it now. Rather than friends who pretend to be there and then go and stab me in the back again and again and again. I know I have friends who are GENUINELY there for me and I'm there for them.

Have to love me when I'm gone When I'm gone Have to love me when I'm gone You'll have to love me when I'm gone

I don't want to live i the past anymore. I want to live in the present. That is what I'm going to do.

until next time xoxo Ash

Taylor Swift Concert Pics!

From the 12/02/10

No more memories. No more silent tears. No more gazing across the wasted years.

Too many years fighting back tears why can't the past just die?

Mood-hopeful

Currently listening to-wishing you were somehow here again from Phantom of the Opera

So....I haven't really blogged....like AT ALL!

so here it goes!

2010! WOO! Ha, I know this is like so late BUT, i can't wait to see everything that happens this year. Everything seems to be finally working out! I'm at a school (well alternative education). My school phobia seems so far away. I don't get why I was so scared. I mean yeah, where i go now is like not a school environment, no uniform, relaxed, we only have a few subjects and its just one big room split up a little, it's an old school library. Only about 55 students go there and not all of them on the same days (Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday) and some just skip. I actually love it there, I've finally started to make friends and am coming out of my shell slightly. It's great!

New year new things right?

I've started guitar lessons! for free! At my schooling. I'm so excited! I've wanted to take guitar lessons for ages, but then it was either guitar of singing. I couldn't choose. So now I get guitar lessons for free! I can still do singing!

Another thing!

On the 12th I went to a Taylor Swift concert and it was...wow, just awesome! except for the screaming...hated that!

It was just amazing!

This year I've decided, to let go of the past and look forward to the future.

I've spent too much time trying to figure out why everything that happened happened. There is no use to it. I'm just going to let go and remember everything happens for a reason. I'm going to stop thinking everything will go wrong and start thinking positively. I'm gonna stop wondering why those so called 'friends' i used to have turned their backs on me and went and became BFF's with my bully, the one that pushed me into depression and a school phobia and got off scott free.

Wow, blogging really helps you get alot out! I'm gonna do this more often!

I'm really looking forward to this year. Last year was good, i made new friends and met people that I will never forget. This year I'm hoping will be even better. I'm so happy already that I'm back in education and I'm making friends. Sure, they all smoke but when they do that I just stay inside. I'll occasionally go out there with them and just hang around, but I prefer not too.

I'm starting to take risks and not freak out over every little thing that could go wrong.

I'm trying to worry less and START FINISHING MY SENTENCES! haha.

New Year. New Me. I guess you could say.

I'm turning 15 this year! WOO! haha

Overall I'm looking forward to this year.

Until next time xoxo Ash